Before I begin to tell you about the next in a long line of abusive phrases pounded into our heads by the Move of God cult, I want you, reader, to do something:
Think for a moment of someone you know personally who you consider to be an excellent parent.
Think about the qualities that cause them to be such a great parent.
I am betting you listed qualities such as:
Patient, wise, loving, kind, accountable, firm, present, consistent, humble, honest, and industrious.
Think about the kind of parent who would have been your dream parent when you were a child and the kind of parent you aim to be. Keep those qualities that you believe make a good parent in mind as you read this blog post.
Several years ago, while the petitioner in the heat of a highly contested adult guardianship case, I received an email that served as a veiled threat. It was from a Move of God cult member and said simply that since I was not honoring my mother and father, my days would be short. I can only assume that the individual was attempting to (very poorly) apply Ephesians 6:2-3 to what they thought they knew about my life and court case.
You see, I was fighting in court to have my brother who experiences disabilities live with me and no longer be subjected to the daily abuse he was experiencing in our parent’s home (which was located on a Move of God cult compound). I was fighting for his safety and well-being, as he was non-verbal and could not effectively speak for himself. In order to accomplish this, I had to tell the court the truth about the abuse that has been going on, not only in my parents’ home, but also in the cult worldwide for decades. Abuse that I had experienced, seen my siblings and other children experience, and heard preached as a “foundational truth” for years in the Move. This truth was not convenient to the Move leaders or members. Truth always makes perpetrators uncomfortable, and often their un-comfortability causes them to lash out with threats, misplaced blame, and lies.
Over my ten years out of the Move of God cult, I have gotten used to cult members and apologists coming at me with accusations of being a terrible person because I don’t “honor my mother and father”. Their guilt trips have no effect on me, and really highlight their brainwashed and judgmental thought patterns. Because this is something that comes up so often, and appears to be one of the cornerstones of the cult’s belief system, I think it is worth a closer look.
Growing up, I remember talking to the elder in charge of supervising youth functions. I told him about the physical and verbal abuse that happened daily in the cabin in which I was raised. I still remember the way he looked at me judgmentally and said, “You need to honor your mother and father. They are doing their best.” In that moment I thought to myself, “Honor my parents really just means keep it to myself.” And that is exactly what it means. Keep it to yourself that your mother told you that she wishes you had never been born. Keep it to yourself that your dad beat you so badly with a 2×4 or belt that you had bruises for days from the back of your knees to the middle of your back. Keep it to yourself that your mom slammed you against the wall so hard that your head left an imprint in the drywall. Keep it to yourself that at night when you are trying to sleep you can’t get your brother’s screams of agony out of your head from his beatings that routinely happened several times a day. Keep it to yourself that you were raped and that the adults who knew about it did nothing except to tell you that “You should be ashamed”. Just keep it to yourself.
Honor your parents leaves no room for believing trauma survivors. It leaves no room for empathy for what they have experienced at the hands of their parents. It leaves no room for the parents to improve the ways in which they parent, and it definitely leaves no room for accountability for having made parenting mistakes.
Let’s go back to our exceptional parent list: Accountable. Honest. Wise. Humble. Loving. These qualities are absent in parent/child relationships where the parents demand that their children honor the dishonorable. They are instead replaced with dishonesty, gas lighting, pride, blame, and the tendency to guilt trip their children. This is not loving or kind and results in children who are very detached emotionally from their parents. Rather than being humble enough to hear the hard truths about the ways in which they are making mistakes that cause pain and distress and being willing to put in the hard work to fix it, the parents are lazy and deny reality.
There are many other phrases that the Move cult frequently uses that go hand in hand with their “honor your mother and father” teaching:
“Don’t dwell on the past.”
“Forgive and forget.”
“What happens here stays here.”
All of these phrases are intended to gas light and guilt the person who has been brave enough to shine light on the abuse. When I lived at John Hinson’s cult group in Immokalee, FL at 18 years old, I remember telling John and his wife about all of the ways in which my parents had abused me and were continuing to abuse my younger brother. They would not even hear me out. John interrupted and said that I needed to stop looking backwards and not dwell on the past. I was told that if they ever heard me speak of my childhood abuse or concern for my brother again, then they would make me get up in front of the entire congregation and tell them every “bad” thing that they were aware that I had ever done. Some of these “bad” things were true. Some were not. They were all things that my parents had told them about me. This threat made me very angry, but it worked to keep me quiet for the remainder of my time there. John Hinson is what the Move cult calls a Father Ministry, placing him among the top leaders in this cult. This is what they do. They are themselves predators and abusers, and they protect other predators and abusers.
Denial is not healing. Anything that has caused pain or damage needs to be exposed, owned and resolved. I know of no other way to heal than to speak the truth. Their attempts to scare, gas light, or guilt me will only result in the light being shone on them. If they wanted me to write nicer things about them, then they should have behaved better and taken accountability for their hurtful mistakes.
To my fellow survivors who are reading this, please know that you are not alone in dealing with pain caused by your family of origin. It is your parents’ bad behavior to own and resolve. It is not your job to try to make them feel better about the ways in which they abused and broke you. If you are being told to honor your abusers, please know that that is a cult teaching that only serves to protect your abuser and shut you up. Speak your truth! You are brave and strong, and I see you.